HavenStory

Somehow, somewhere out of the blue, I got this yearning to...

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 03:33:54 -0700

Somehow, somewhere out of the blue, I got this yearning to listen to Bonnie #Raitt. Now I confess, the big music lover I am, I don’t own any of Bonnie’s music. But, for some reason, I specifically wanted to hear “Have A Heart” and I stumbled upon this dreamy/breezy version which I just adore. A couple hours later, I was listening to all sorts of Bonnie Raitt tracks and realized how much I really like her music, her voice and most of all - her sass. Enjoy! xo haven

Monteverde, Costa Rica. Staying in this remote little town to...

Sun, 05 Aug 2012 18:01:12 -0700

Monteverde, Costa Rica. Staying in this remote little town to zip line. Love to see how others live, socialize and overall appreciate the simple little things in life. Happy Sunday Tumblr friends - xo haven

Volcan Arenal, Costa Rica. Beautiful sights. We’re on our...

Thu, 02 Aug 2012 15:40:33 -0700

Volcan Arenal, Costa Rica. Beautiful sights.
We’re on our way to white water rafting today!

An adventure awaits! Life is what we make of it, and mine will...

Wed, 01 Aug 2012 14:34:06 -0700

An adventure awaits! Life is what we make of it, and mine will always be one full of exploration and gratitude. I’ll be posting this week from the beautiful Costa Rica where I’m blessed to be w/4 other friends. Have a great week, my Tumblr friends. xo -haven

"Sums me up nicely: People say I’m the life of the party ‘cause I tell a joke or two..."

Sat, 21 Jul 2012 22:50:57 -0700

“Sums me up nicely: People say I’m the life of the party ‘cause I tell a joke or two Although I might be laughing loud and hearty Deep inside I’m blue So take a good look at my face You’ll see my smile looks out of place If you look closer, it’s easy to trace The tracks of my tears..”

- Smokey Robinson at The Hollywood Bowl

Taking in the smooth, sexy sounds of Smokey Robinson at The...

Sat, 21 Jul 2012 22:06:03 -0700

Taking in the smooth, sexy sounds of Smokey Robinson at The Hollywood Bowl, mmmmm xo

showslow: Lori Weitzel

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 11:56:30 -0700

showslow:

Lori Weitzel

Photo

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 11:54:46 -0700

Hello Tumblr. I'm back. I need you!

Thu, 19 Jul 2012 03:20:02 -0700

Hello my sweet Tumblr friends. I’ve been away, and I need your good vibes more so than ever.

A quick update: I was recently hit by a car while on one of my many liberating, empowering runs. I’m fine, just broke my tailbone- but what it’s done to me in terms of perspective is quite phenomenal. Add to this the fact that ‘Legends’ served his purpose and is now gone. An end in unfortunate bad terms, his deception/his loss- my gain during our time and I am better for it. I recognize and for this I am thankful.

Music remains my constant- aside from fitness which is on pause right now. But, I promise to myself not to run, hide from feelings, to live and continue loving and believing, living ‘balls out’ - it’s the only way to live, my friends, to feel we’re really, truly alive. Stay tuned for more poetry, more music, more prose & more love. Let’s live a life of abundance, yeah! - xoxo I missed you! - haven ;)

The Game

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 22:21:11 -0700

Tenderly they gaze
And as quick as the last embrace
They let go in fear
There could there be more
But who wants to know?
Who dares to go?
Might it be easier then… to forego

Yeah, she goes

The game is juicy
And he claims to lead
She’s so far ahead
Watch it, baby, lest you carelessly bleed

And on, he goes

Every now and again they slip
Into a rhythm so familiar and comforting
That neither wants to admit
So one clutching and the other gripping
This obvious connection they begin to omit

For now, on, they go

It’s a game he’s mastered
And as fun as it is for her too
It is his to lose
She will prove

And in the end they will their separate ways go
It was a game nonetheless
But both a true love let go

-haven

Changing my tune...

Thu, 23 Feb 2012 01:57:00 -0800

So when I started HavenStory a little over a year ago, i was down in the dumps and music uplifted me to no end. I made it my quest and journey to find new bands, artists, remixes of songs, etc. Fast forward to now and, well, I am pretty much still down in the dumps, but I have exhausted my time and priorities between friends, dating and of course work/career, things that are helping me cycle out of divorce land into new me land. Not much time is left to discover new music, sadly, sadly so. So in the interim, i shall change my tune: HavenStory will remain a blog about relationships first and foremost, a blog with the occasional poem, and the occasional song. But i don’t want to mislead you, baby, that this here is a music blog. It’s just my words interpreting feeling, sometimes in pure coherence, sometimes in pure pain, nothing but the raw. But, i will always, always, strive to be positive and shed that light in my posts, writings and well, everything around me… because the world is so beautiful, and I am blessed to have the people i do in my life, blessed to be on my own and explore the never ending possibilities of me and really just life. Cheers, my Tumblr friends! Have you uplifted someone today yet? I promise you will feel better for it, go on: Love someone, admire someone, respect someone today and again tomorrow and so on ; ) xo -haven

"Fear may be not knowing where I’m going and what lies ahead… but, adventure, oh..."

Tue, 17 Jan 2012 01:02:51 -0800

“Fear may be not knowing where I’m going and what lies ahead… but, adventure, oh adventure is making the MOST of it when I damn well get there!”

- haven

An ode to 2011 & this here blank page

Sun, 08 Jan 2012 21:23:00 -0800

This blank page stares at me
Taunting
Daring
“Write bitch
What have you got?
Poetry you call it?
Get on with yourself, girl
Write me a sonnet
About how you were betrayed
Write me a love letter
About the lover you met
Write me your sorrows
Your dreams
Your intentions
You sadly forlorn remain
And I here this blank page
Stare at you not in disdain
Not in disdain
But a blank page
For you to maim
Or possibly a life reclaim
Yeah, a life reclaim
Yours
Today, you took all the right steps
And here we are
You writing
You dreaming
You loving
Yourself and others
Opening up to for once loved be
Without trading anything in exchange
Just a little ‘ol blank page staring at you
No longer blank
Thankfully
Lovingly
Because of your courage
To spill it
Like only spilled ink
And raw emotions could”

God, what would this year have been
Without Tumblr
Without words
Without friends
And the courage you mustered
The hills you climbed and hiked
The iron you pounded
to shape your body
And thereby your mind
Your soul
To feel like only a superhero could
And yet your heart for now remains frail
But your friends and loved ones ready to the avail
And I hear you say loudly and purely:
“Thank you blank page,
Thank you my friends,
Thank you my pretty strangers,
Who if only momentarily you have made me
On a high feel
Thank you God,
Thank you mom,
Thank you me,
For picking myself up
And matching emotions to words
Feelings to laughter
And broken dreams to hopes”

Here’s to 2012 and baby, baby
To so, so much more!

-haven

(Art “belle monde” via bookspaperscissors)

An unexpectedly great close to 2011 and an equally great opener...

Sun, 01 Jan 2012 17:24:18 -0800

An unexpectedly great close to 2011 and an equally great opener to 2012 w/Legends… Happy New Year my Tumblr friends!

By your side?

Sun, 25 Dec 2011 22:42:00 -0800

You didn’t ask
So
I didn’t say
Sorry, was it my
responsibility
And did I
Lead you astray?

You didn’t know
Or so you claim
That I was falling
As hard as you
But I’ve been hurt
And I retreated
You left me no choice
And I had it in me
To walk away

You had it in you
To express
Your words perfectly
Matching your feelings
As I fucked-up like a soldier lain
And I was a rebound or so I suspected
And so this guard of mine tough like concrete remained

Meanwhile you were certain that I was
The one who got you,
And I did
That one who refreshingly sought you and
Special made you feel
And I wanted to, and so I did
But, I needed that too.
You gave it,
But this fucked state of mine
couldn’t see it- even if the awakening was so fucking rude

I fucked up
I miss you
But you needed more
Than I could give you
And I am not sure that
Even writing this
I could enough give for us two

What next, baby?
Do you have it in you
To grow this out and love
me unconditionally?
I’ve done it,
And I know that I with you too can
Will you simply lie by me?
Share your dreams?
And contently hold my hand?

Time is all I need,
but not alone.
I want you by my side
Just understand
It will take a bit more
To let this guard down
And let go
And when I do, baby
This world of ours,
This world of yours
I will be your lover,
Your biggest fan
And adoring admirer

Please give me some time,
but don’t for a minute-
Don’t for a minute
Leave my side

- haven

(Art “Episodes” by Grzegorz Domaradzki via Marysoul )

Dearest, Tumblr, sorry I lied

Sun, 25 Dec 2011 20:53:21 -0800

I haven’t been fully honest with you, Tumblr. Withholding info and feelings is just as bad as a lie. And so i have deliberately not written because i needed time to sort me out. And guess what… I’m still not done. I know this much - if I were to recap the last few months, it would be something like this: September - elation, discovery; October - a test of all the lessons I thought i had learned this year; November - surprise, adventure; December - discovery, happiness yet grief and effen non-stop tears during this holiday week. And overall in December - fear - fear that good could easily turn to bad, hurt, vulnerability all those human emotions that scare the shit out of most us. Things with “Legends” have developed into something else, we don’t really know what yet, but it’s def something we both didn’t expect - we have both said we’re a bit afraid at the speed of things, but we’re in this and neither has backed away. So off we go and we continue to stay on for the ride. Merry Christmas, my Tumblr friends. I hope you are somewhere in the world being treated gracefully, lovingly, being respected and more importantly that you are sharing the goodness in yourself and loving and admiring someone back. Many blessings to you all! xo - haven

"Hope" is the thing with feathers

Sun, 11 Dec 2011 02:36:37 -0800

She remains my favorite poet yesterday, today and forever, good night, -xo haven
secretedsins:

“Hope” is the thing with feathers —
That perches in the soul —
And sings the tune without the words —
And never stops — at all —

And sweetest — in the Gale — is heard —
And sore must be the storm —
That could abash the little Bird
That kept so many warm —

I’ve heard it in the chillest land —
And on the strangest Sea —
Yet, never, in Extremity,
It asked a crumb — of Me.

— Emily Dickinson

A most beautiful excerpt from the exceptional #Ayn Rand that resonates and touches on every emotion...

Sat, 10 Dec 2011 09:00:05 -0800

A most beautiful excerpt from the exceptional #Ayn Rand that resonates and touches on every emotion I feel about my state of being this year and onto #2012 as I regained control of my identity, vowed to honor myself and truly live life. Thanks to secretedsins for posting, you rock!

I am. I think. I will.

My hands … My spirit … My sky … My forest … This earth of mine … What must I say besides? These are the words. This is the answer.

I stand here on the summit of the mountain. I lift my head and I spread my arms. This, my body and spirit, this is the end of the quest. I wished to know the meaning of things. I am the meaning. I wished to find a warrant for being. I need no warrant for being, and no word of sanction upon my being. I am the warrant and the sanction.

It is my eyes which see, and the sight of my eyes grants beauty to the earth. It is my ears which hear, and the hearing of my ears gives its song to the world. It is my mind which thinks, and the judgement of my mind is the only searchlight that can find the truth. It is my will which chooses, and the choice of my will is the only edict I must respect.

- Ayn Rand, Anthem

No more love-starved ; )

Fri, 09 Dec 2011 17:00:06 -0800

I had always heard that what you put out in the world, you get back, but never really understood the meaning of it to really put it in motion. Then this year came when i left a long term partner and found all this energy that I had invested in him and saving our marriage, I could now invest in myself and pick back up. And so I began to put out this positive energy, this sense of wonder, curiosity and adventure and overall good-naturedness about people and the world, and I have seen it return to me twofold in awe. This week was beautiful evidence of that.

From a few nice times hanging with my new friend Legends to being treated to dinner at my gal pal’s new apartment. The nice texts I got from L throughout the week, some rockin bonding gal time and some sweet mom time too. I feel loved, blessed and nurtured. Remember how often I’d write about that “love-starved” feeling? I remember feeling so neglected for years with not a hand held. well, let’s not get into that, yeah. But, the beauty in it too is that I can give back and be a much better friend, confidant and even well, a much more fun date.

I learned so much about my friend tonight- I’ve known her for almost 10 years through work and it’s funny how just by listening and asking the right questions you can make someone feel comfy enough that they open up and begin really sharing and pouring their heart out. My friend and I had so much more in common than we ever imagined and it took for her to leave that job for us to get closer and I am so grateful to cultivate our friendship and grow it even more. Here’s to you, B! xo -haven

"Haven's Happenstance: The New Music Series"

Fri, 09 Dec 2011 06:00:05 -0800

I’m baaacckk! And I’ve got sooo much new #music to share that I decided to create a series out of it. Over the week, I will post new music that is completely rocking my world. Hope you like!

First up: I’m so ridiculously obsessed (no joke) with NeedToBreathe and their latest “The Reckoning.”
You know how I love The Gaslight Anthem - well, not since discovering those guys a few years back have I been so excited with a new band discovery. NeedToBreathe have that grit, southern rock, balls-out passion that I just ADORE. I love to turn up the volume and blast their tunes. Reminiscent of Kings Of Leon (and they get many comparisons, I’m sure), NTB are a breed of their own - similar, yes, but they set themselves apart. Please, if you stop reading the series here at day one: remember just one thing: download The Reckoning - it is jam-packed with ‘single’-worthy hits - my favs are “Maybe They’re On To Us,” “Oohs and Aahs” “Drive All Night” “Able”, etc.